Poems...Thoughts...Whatever

Insecure females and men without backbones….I don’t...

Wed, 21 Sep 2011 12:28:27 -0400

Insecure females and men without backbones….I don’t respect it.

Outside looking in on myself

Tue, 20 Sep 2011 19:10:04 -0400

You hide behind a mask, burying all emotions in a safe place to hide any signs of being weak. But who are you really hiding from? Those who care? Those who seek to bring you happiness? In your mind exposing your true feelings only gives someone the opportunity to penetrate your thoughts, feed off your fears and deceive your trust. So you never make it available. Insensitive, coldhearted, unlovable is how your viewed and in your head it seems to be the most logical way to go about life.

Imagine if everyone you’ve ever pined for, wanted you back....

Tue, 20 Sep 2011 19:03:50 -0400

Imagine if everyone you’ve ever pined for, wanted you back. Imagine if you wanted everyone who has ever pined for you. It would be a damn mess! Really I wonder, what are the odds that two people are going to want each other the exact same way at the exact same time? #thoughts

Thoughts fill my mind. I try to not regret anything, but there...

Tue, 20 Sep 2011 18:59:57 -0400

Thoughts fill my mind. I try to not regret anything, but there are times where there’s no way around it. I’m smart, I hold a higher intellect than most and I still manage to demonstrate acts of complete stupidity. Why? Simple, I allow my thought process to become tainted by emotion. Emotions I play off so well, but in reality I’m scarred, hurt, damaged. I don’t wanna love, don’t want to trust, don’t want to have faith that any man will show me differently than what my heart has already been subjected to. So what do I resort to?… random acts of lust. This is not to say I put myself out there because I clearly don’t. The men who I have become close enough to give myself to, I read clearly. Though they may have felt something, I held zero attachment. No feelings. It was just sex to me. I build this wall to separate the two and because of this, sex has lacked importance to me since I really don’t enjoy it. Sex with someone you love is beautiful to say the least it’s an in depth connection of two souls, it’s deep. The act of having sex with someone just to climax without having any emotional attachment isn’t. How can you allow yourself to become so personal and not have any feelings? To be perfectly honest, I think emotionless sex hurts more in the long run because your giving yourself to a man for temporary and of course it’s not appreciated….so what was the point? What happiness can come from it? The answer….with the exception of a quick nutt, it’s pointless sex.

it isn’t perfect…it’s the perfect...

Sat, 10 Sep 2011 17:58:52 -0400

it isn’t perfect…it’s the perfect imperfection. I only pressed the button bc the (try me) sign was too temptin…never for keeps tho :)

“Then u see perfection on display… it’s...

Sat, 10 Sep 2011 17:54:24 -0400

“Then u see perfection on display… it’s unattainable so ur like a kid, face pressed against the glass…looking at what u can never have”

Delirium of delight If you are going to fall in love with me,...

Sat, 10 Sep 2011 17:51:25 -0400

Delirium of delight

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved…

I’m back….done being neglectful towards my tumblr

Sat, 10 Sep 2011 08:17:28 -0400

I’m back….done being neglectful towards my tumblr

Haven’t been on here in forever… Oops

Mon, 29 Aug 2011 11:16:35 -0400

Haven’t been on here in forever… Oops

somethingfortheladies: Frank Ocean - “Thinking About You” Given...

Sat, 30 Jul 2011 15:25:43 -0400

somethingfortheladies:

Frank Ocean - “Thinking About You”

Given the amount of time that I’ve spent talking about how much I really don’t like OFWGKTAWTFBBQ, it might come as a surprise to a few that I really love this track; I would even go as far as to say that I think it’s better than anything the Weeknd’s done and probably better than a lot of what Drake’s done, too. It’s weird because Odd Future’s gained notoriety for being kind of terrible towards women, but this track just sounds like Frank’s a dude who’s got a crush on a gal.

I can’t begin to count the amount of delusional women I’ve come...

Fri, 22 Jul 2011 13:22:14 -0400

I can’t begin to count the amount of delusional women I’ve come into contact with in my 22 years of living, but what I can say is that usually the topic that most women seem to be delusional about is relationships… The misconception that having sex with a man means that he is your man…Most women fail to admit to themselves that they are just a “booty call.” Unless both parties have acknowledged a relationship, it does NOT exists. You are just a piece of ass to him…so…be that piece of ass and don’t expect nothing more. As Binky would say..Don’t “ride” for a man who isn’t even thinking about you. Truth is truth baby, sorry.

Photoshoot fresh looking like wealth about to call the paparazzi...

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 18:26:11 -0400

Photoshoot fresh looking like wealth about to call the paparazzi on myself. (this track….no words.)

Erratic, irrational behaviour makes regular people flip their...

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 15:39:13 -0400

Erratic, irrational behaviour makes regular people flip their lids and lose control. When you can’t make sense of something you start to lose your freakin marbles since your head, common sense and heart all point in polar directions. When someone tells you they love you but act like they could care less about you, it confuses the senses. You might walk away because you are smart enough to know that actions speak louder than words but what if on your first step in the right direction, the other person starts magically doing AND saying the right things? You retreat! And then when things go back to the way they were you try to flea, then they give chase and you (still hoping for the best) decide to see this wave through. Do this dance enough times and see if you don’t go a little mad! Engaging emotions, hope, pride and gambling in one relationship is a recipe for disaster and the most common cause of the crazy bitch syndrome.

As fate would have it….it wasn’t meant to be. I will...

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 14:45:32 -0400

As fate would have it….it wasn’t meant to be. I will forgive all the bad times, and keep all the good times as beautiful memories.

I am learning to accept my curves…shiit, I’m a...

Thu, 21 Jul 2011 11:35:12 -0400

I am learning to accept my curves…shiit, I’m a Latina I’m supposed to have them…and any flaws I may have ARE beautiful.

THE GREATEST….no argument needed.

Wed, 20 Jul 2011 19:15:30 -0400

THE GREATEST….no argument needed.

I could put this shit on repeat and never get tired of it....

Wed, 20 Jul 2011 19:03:38 -0400

I could put this shit on repeat and never get tired of it. Something about this song puts me at ease.

For the most part I allow my thoughts to consume me. The...

Wed, 20 Jul 2011 13:59:41 -0400

For the most part I allow my thoughts to consume me. The “what if’s” penetrate and torture me at times. I allow this to happen. I am slowly becoming a victim to my own mind. Enslaved to these negative feelings, these negative emotions, that no one should ever feel or let become a part of them. I watch the good pass me by because I am frightened of the potential hurt and pain that good posses. So time passes by and I remain trapped in my safe zone. My only rescue, my only knight in shining armor, is too afraid to save herself.

Looking for some things I think that I can find in...

Wed, 20 Jul 2011 13:34:50 -0400

Looking for some things I think that I can find in you….trust issues

Who knows maybe I’m crazy…

Wed, 20 Jul 2011 13:20:32 -0400

Who knows maybe I’m crazy…